Spice Girls star Mel B details shock suicide attempt

Former Spice Girl Mel B has revealed she once tried to take her own life by swallowing 200 aspirin pills.

In her new memoir, Brutally Honest, she writes about blacking out and waking up covered in bruises.

She also describes feeling “emotionally battered” when she made a suicide attempt in 2014 in a bid to escape her marriage to then-husband Stephen Belafonte, who she feared would attempt to “ruin” her career and “destroy” her family.

In an excerpt published in The Sun, Mel writes: “As each pill goes into my mouth, I ask myself: ‘Are you sure?’ And I take another one. Ten, 20, 50, 100. ‘Are you sure?’ Behind the glitter of fame, I felt emotionally battered, estranged from my family.

“I felt ugly and detested by the very man who once promised to love and protect me, my husband and manager Stephen.

“A man who after 10 years of marriage now had a library of sex tapes that could — as we both well knew — ruin my career and destroy my family.

“I wrote frantic, disjointed notes for Phoenix, my eldest daughter, my soulmate — the girl who is little sister, friend and daughter to me.

“It was going to be up to her to get my other little girls, Angel and Madison, to Leeds where they could all live with my mum.

But the star eventually realised she wanted to make her “life count” and tried to get out of her hotel room.

She continued: “As soon as I’d swallowed that last pill, I knew I didn’t want to go anywhere. ‘Melanie! What the f**k are you doing? Get a grip!’

“Suicide was not the answer. I had to make my life count. I had to get to a hospital. I had to get those pills out of my stomach before anything happened.

“My head was spinning. All I thought was that I needed to get out of the room but for some reason the door was jammed.”

The singer — who also confessed to taking six lines of cocaine a day during that period — remembers few details about what happened next, but she was left bruised from throwing herself at the room door and eventually woke up in hospital, where she was confronted by her “furious” eldest daughter, Phoenix, now 19.

She wrote: “Mum, what the hell?’ Phoenix was standing by my bed. Furious, shaking, full of rage. Of all the memories from all those hours, it is the one that still floors me. ‘Why, Mum? Why? Why?’ It was the saddest moment of my life.

“All I ever want is for her to know how sorry I am, how lost I was and how I’ll never, ever abandon her again.

“Looking at my daughter — distraught, devastated, angry — was the moment I knew the fightback had to start.”

Mel who was a judge on talent show The X Factor in the UK at the time, missed the following night’s taping but returned to the show just a day later.

She also returned without her wedding ring in a deliberate message to her estranged husband.

“My message to the world and to my husband was going to be VERY CLEAR. I wanted people out there watching to be my witnesses. I took off my vast, square-cut diamond wedding ring. A ring I’d worn on The X Factor a few weeks before to show the world what a solid couple Stephen and I were.”

Three months later, Mel filed for divorce from Belafonte after almost 10 years of marriage.

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— with The Sun

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